This morning, when journaling, I asked God, “What to write about?” He answered, “Write what you think about.” I think about what stops me (and countless others) from sharing more of what I know and think about.
And then it started: If I write what I think about, would you still like me? Love me? Do you even like or love me now and as I am? Is it your judgment that I am reluctant to expose myself to? Or is it my judgment that I am not good enough or will not perform to my high standards and be proud of my work?
So many limiting thoughts came at once. Judgment is the loudest. No No! Not today Judgey!! I am not letting you win Judgey!!
Thankfully, whatever limiting thought comes, I ask myself, “How am I already about that quality? What’s the truth to uncover beyond such appearance?”
What is it about the judgment we are so often afraid of? Of course, we fear the negative one, yet judgment itself is necessary.
Judgment/discrimination/discernment is the thought process of differentiating right from wrong and good from evil. It’s an essential process in life to protect it and elevate it; it’s needed even more. It’s also a skill to develop and master if one is to use it justly.
The problem comes when we don’t use our judgment nobly and justly. When we let whatever flavor of trendy ideology we momentarily subscribe to overtake us without our conscious control and critical thinking.
Take, for example, the “not good enough” judgment, one of the most challenging and talent-destructing judgments. Or “who am I” to say/share/make/do that?” judgment. Once you let them in, if you entertain them, they will not leave any time soon. Like weeds in the garden, left unchallenged – they will grow and overtake your mind, close your heart, freeze your body. When it all becomes too familiar, it becomes automated and not even recognizable as destructive as it is.
For a long time, I judged myself as “Who am I to tell you about this or that?” I did not discern that such judgment served as a barrier to sharing my growth/work/excitement and took away the opportunity from you to exercise your autonomy in judging nobly and deciding accordingly.
I don’t know what challenging thoughts and/or situations you are facing in your life right now. I don’t know if you would want my help even if I knew. I do know and want you to know that you are not alone; you are never alone.
Chances are that I did or currently face challenges similar to yours. And I encourage you to keep going and keep looking for solutions to resolve whatever troubles you. Seek the hand to help you carry your burden. Seek the hand to help you climb your aspirations. Seek, and you shall find. Knock, and it shall open.
Open your heart and mind and recognize that God is within and with you. And no matter how grand your challenge, show it that your God is enormously grander.
In a bad relationship? Hire God as your counselor.
Bad health? Hire God as your ultimate healer.
Lack of money? Hire God as your chief financial officer.
I am, for example, hiring God as my sales and marketing manager.
The time is to expect the unexpected anyway.
Or it’s actually time to uphold or return to timeless values, like including more nature (besides technology) in our daily lives, building your own business, self-reflecting through artful journaling, or…
Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it. Begin it now. *
I wish I could tell you way more than this post can accommodate, but you can learn more through the links provided, and I am sure I’ll be writing more just about everything. Thank you for reading, and if I can help you in any way, please reach out and let me know.
With much love,
BE BOLD, BE CURIOUS, BE COURAGEOUS.
Biljana
*A quote commonly misattributed to Goethe was more likely penned by William Hutchinson Murray in his 1951 book “The Scottish Himalayan Expedition.”